Lazy Summer Days

So, today was the first day since I have been back home that I was able to sleep past 8 in the morning. I did get up at 8, then 1, then 2... But it was my choice.

Had to start a new diet the other day, doctors orders. It's not been fun and it's really bland but i know i'll lose weight on it. Which is, of course, a plus. But, sometimes it's hard to find foods to eat with the family. They can eat some of the most delicious foods and i'm over in a corner snackin on white bread and meat w/o cheese or condiments.

No fair.

But if it helps with the pains and problems I have been having then i'll do it and i'll be healthier for it.

How's everything going in the blogosphere? Well, night night.

Remember to always Dance Out All The Pains

Decisions Made

So I finally decided on a school,

Seems as though it didn't take so long.

It sucks that everything fell through for me but I hope that this is God's untimely way of telling me where I should be.

Or at least I hope so!

Late Night Good Night

Remember to always Dance Out All The Pains

Decisions, Decisions

I have to make a decision for school but i am just about to the point of breaking.

After a doctors visit, nausea, fever, and a cold; I need a nap!!!

I have to make a decision like today, but i don't know which school to choose. Each have their own merits but I don't know if i should choose a certain side of the state. I am leaning toward the main state school mostly because it is closer even though it is about 1000 more than the other...

What would you do in this situation? Choose the closer school or choose the school based solely on the cost of education. I have to loan it all out anyway and am looking at about 10-13 K a semester... what should i do?

Remember to Always Dance Out All The Pains

When A Heart Breaks, It Don't Break Even

I'm sitting here toughing it out at about 2 am. I am listening to The Script. There is a huge thunderstorm moving in. I hate storms more than just about anyone can imagine. It's irrational and I've never lost everything to a storm but I'm constantly in fear that I might.

It makes it hard to be stuck up this late. I wish I could have slept through it. I understand why I am up. My brain won't shut down and today the pain was almost intolerable. For those who don't know, I have a back condition and other unknown problems; thanks to a doctor who is hunting and pecking for a diagnosis rather than just running tests.

I was asked today, "rate your pain from 1 to 5. 5 being the worst." I'm sorry but that's just not a detailed enough pain scale for me. I have so many different aches I need more options. :) I know that sounds stupid but it is what it is today.

How many of you suffer from arthritis or other unrelated joint and muscle pains? If you do, then you understand what i go through every day. Picture falling down a flight of stairs only to get up like nothing happened then find a softball size bruise. Now slap it. That's what it feels like all over.

I know I'm just complaining today but if you go back and read my past posts you'll see I don't complain about my aches and pains, but today has been one of the worst days ever. It sucks. I wish there was someway to show my doctor exactly what's wrong with me without insulting them. I'm sorry that I know better; it is what is happening to me at this moment in my life.

At this age, I should not have all of the problems that I do. I wish there was something that I could do. I feel like I just need to go for a 10 mile run, I can hardly make it to the bathroom. I'm hoping that this will pass with the storm that's brewing outside my windows.

It's supposed to be pretty ugly today. I hate storms because the pressure changes put strain on my joints.

Well, If you have made it this far in my post and you've read it all, please comment on it. I appreciate it and I want to read your blog since you have taken the time to read mine.

Have a wonderful night.

Remember to always Dance Out All The Pains

Sadden Day

Had to put down an animal today. Most upset I've ever seen a grandparent.

Today is a Blah day.

Remember to always Dance Out All The Pains

UPDATE

I am writing a second post for the evening, I have deleted 16 posts. I feel neglectful to my blog because I have been so far behind on updating. It is a great stress reliever. I hope to be better and keep up with this more attentively in days to come.

Remember to always Dance Out All The Pains

3 Days Until I Go Home

So, It's three days until I start driving back home. Everything fell through the bottom and I have to move. It's unfortunate, but it's pretty much how my life story goes. I hate that it has happened, but I'll deal. I have a question, do you read my blog? Can you post a comment so that I can read your blog, too?

This blog seemed like so much fun when I first signed on. Now, it feels silly because no one reads it.

goodnight,

Remember to Always Dance Out All The Pains

Cleaning Decks

It's been a hard day; had to clean the deck today.

After moving about 10 days ago, then to all the chores around here. I'm exhausted!

Time for Bed, Wish I got on here more. Sorry i've let you down.

Night,
Remember to always Dance Out All The Pains!