When It Rains and You Can't Dance In It

It's been a tough couple of weeks for me.

I have been so sore and even when I change my medication there's nothing I can do. I feel tied to it now. I can't function if its been over 4 hours since my last dose. And just so you know, the medication is to be taken every four hours as needed. I don't take it overnight b/c that's just silly. You can't feel physical pain while dreaming. Well, reality pain anyway.

I hate that this is what my life is leading to. I spend three years on the same medication and it doesn't work. one that i took every 12 hours. (it never really worked but if i took it regularly it would build up in my system and offer at least some relief) I wish there was something else I could do. And I know I have talked about my problems alot, but I sure as hell don't get any response b/c no one reads my blog, but that's fine. I like having my vent even if I don't get attention b/c that's not what I'm after. This is just like a journal without the need to haul one around with me.

On top of my disks in my back, i now suffer from acid intolerance and every medication i try just makes me sick to my stomach. I try to enjoy the normal things in life but I can't because my stomach cant handle it. Does this seem fair? I'm sure my pains are just from all of the medicine that I've been on and I could tough through it most days. It is just that some days are really, really bad.

On top of all of that. I have no food in this house... or well I do but it so scanty that there's not even a semi-delectable way to combine anything i have. I have hamburger patties, pre-made and super frozen, blegh. Really nasty ass soup from Great Value that I need to just chuck, bc unless I put oodles of salt in it i don't think i'll be eating it and i don't need that much salt in my diet. I also have mashed potatoes, cream of mushroom soup and green beens, which are yummy but if i made a good meal, i'd be foodless. I also have icing, nasty icing... it wasn't very tasty and i should have stuck to vanilla when i decided to bake that cake...

Which reminds me.... note to self: throw out icing= its nasty. I also have two boxes of Mac N Cheese. it's delicious but one can only eat it so many days in a row when you have to call it quits with it.

Oh, well, that ends my rant for the night. Thanks for reading if you did. And if i'm just talking to myself. Goodnight self!

Remember to Always Dance Out All The Pains