Cristae of the Powerhouse

It's nothing if not an efficient means to the ends. There are far greater things that what we go through on a daily basis. I find myself sometimes wondering why I get out of bed in the morning. Then, I remember, I am not the only one who has a bad time of it. I am not the only person on the planet dealing with severe disc issues coupled by lupus, pcos, rheumatoid arthritis, and the like. I find that I need to take a reassurance of my own measures to reevaluate my idea of what is truly the issue that I deal with.

Is it the problems that I have with my chronic issues or is it the problems that I have mentally dealing with the individualized issues. I try my hardest to understand all that I have to go through and sometimes just getting out of bed in the morning makes me want to high-five myself. 

Existentially of course, I find myself in the midst of dealing with a far greater issue of mentally being capable. Being capable of many different things. I try very hard to understand the many issues that I am going through but even more so to understand the issues that other people go through and to understand that I am not the only one dealing with the issues that make life hard to adjust to or otherwise deal with in the plainest of instances.

I've spent a great amount of time trying to get my life all figured out and trying to understand what it is that I need to figure out. I need a job and I need to ace this class. I also need to move out and be on my own since I am almost 25. Seriously? This is getting ridiculous. VERY RIDICULOUS. I am more than that of course. I need to get my shit together.